A friend of mine posted on an older post of mine (I’m Not Perfect and I Don’t Have to Be) and I chuckled when I reread it. I remember that day and I remember that feeling I had, and I’m happy to say that I’m still not perfect.
I’ve grown, though. I’m not the same as I was two years ago. Some of the same frustrations exist, but I’m interfacing with them in a different way, such as health issues that had just started back then. They’ve escalated a bit, but now I’m working on removing the cause at the physical and energetic level. It’s hard work, but it’s worth doing. In the process, I’m also deprogramming from my brain some old beliefs about what healthy has to be.
I’ve also met one of my Spirit Guides – a mischievous being (not surprising) that loves to dance. I see her in dreams and meditations and she’s always reconnecting me to the dancer inside. It’s amazing how my belly dance has drifted into a form of ecstatic dance – I can only imagine what I must look like.
I’m still feeling out the kinds of readings I want to offer. I feel that readings are one of the greatest gifts I have to offer – and one of the things I have the most experience in (over 20 years), but I’m not sure what exactly is needed to help people follow their paths. I know what kinds of things tarot clients want to know, but I want to offer a different kind of reading through my site. I suppose I should do a reading on that? LOL!
In addition, I’m trying to peg down the kind of ‘coaching’ that I want to offer. It’s hard to describe – I do a lot of “coaching” (I’m not sure I even like that word) along with my readings and want that to be something that I offer to you as well as my readings and I’m not sure if they should be together or separate.
I guess it’s fair to say that I’m learning a lot about products, business, and marketing and have a lot to improve on in that area.
But I’ve also learned so much more about magic than I knew 2 years ago! I’ve studied shamanism, reiki, voodoo, reviewed chakras, and have delved more deeply into journeys and meditations.
So I’m still not perfect. Some things have gotten better, and some things still provide opportunities for growth. But that’s okay – I’m human, and that’s how it’s supposed to be.