So, this blog space has been purposed and re-purposed again and again as I can’t quite decide what to do with it. Today, I decided that this is going to be my personal whiteboard. Where I do my thinking, learning, and growing and those of you who run across this blog are welcome to contribute or not, follow along, occasionally visit, or interface with my blog however you want. But this is my personal journey. So you’re going to see a mix of things here. Self-help exercises, personal thoughts and musings, things I’m struggling with, stuff I just want to get off my chest, whatever comes to mind.
The first thing I want to do is let you in a little more. Tell you a little something about me to make this more personal. So, we’ll start with the biggie. I have PTSD, cause undetermined, there are several theories. But I’ve had enough traumas in my life that they haven’t figured out which one threw me through a loop. I’m sure we’ll touch on those more later. I’m on disability, but I still work irregularly as disability doesn’t cover all my bills and I have a fiance and 3 cats to support. Another thing is that I love art, but I don’t understand it, I’m not sure I ever will. I’m told I’m artistic and creative, but I don’t see it. I do, however, enjoy photography and belly dance and find them to be excellent outlets. But I need to dance more – it’s like my joy has been taken away. But for this, I need space. So I need to give myself space in which to express myself and being generous with myself is not something I’m good at. I also do graphic/web design WAY on the side. I enjoy it the doing part of it, but struggle with the client part of it. Along with my PTSD, I have agoraphobia (fear of leaving the house) and social phobia (fear of other people), so I struggle a lot with day to day activities and the majority of the time I don’t leave my house and I communicate with my friends through my computer, either on Facebook or via text message. I’m also a psychic tarot reader, ordained minister, and a pagan. This is going to be one very strange blog, indeed. I also need to learn the word ‘no.’
So there’s a little bit more about me. This blog should be getting a lot more activity now and I hope my personal journey can help or inspire you in your personal journey. I had a fellow psychic tell me today that my purpose was to deliver my message to the world and help other people. I don’t know what my message is, yet, but hopefully this place will help me find it.
